hey blog. buti't di ka inamag. harhar..

as expected, senior year is such a pressure cooker. everywhere, everyone and just about EVERYTHING is pushing me to my limits [which will be our next topic in math. *ngek* dork.] nah. OA. di naman. it's just that i can't afford to be as carefree as i've always been. alam mo un.. most of my friends have become really GC and honestly, they have all the reasons to be so. last year na to e.

pero sabi ko nga sa sarili ko last week, di ako magppressure. i will try to be responsible but i WILL HAVE as much fun as i want. cares ko ba kung bagsak galore ako sa english at math. yeah fine. i can't say i'm totally walang pake but then, why dwell on these things? mas wala akong mapapala kung magmumukmok ako over some lousy scores and frustrated attempts to salvage my grades. yan ung isa sa mga natutunan ko sa pisay. before high school, i was the biggest loser-- i craved for attention too much, esp from my parents; i was the weirdest creature you'll ever lay eyes on; and back then, my life and my grades are one.

i love this school because this is where God defined me. grades no longer measure my worth. i may still be struggling with my identity but it's a lot easier kasi ang iniisip ko na lang e kung san nagmula ang mga ninuno ko [that kind of identity crisis.. if you even call that a 'crisis' *hmf* whatever shayne]. saka my mama makes my life less horrid than it actually is. she's so cool. i love her. last week, nagshop kami like wala akong dalawang long tests the next day at kunwari nasimulan ko na ung individual rrl ko.. alam mo un. tas kanina, sabay kaming nagpa-salon. kunwari wala ako masyadong ginagawa. haha. yeah.. ang kikay noh? it's just her way of easing the ANGUISH my education is throwing on me. *harhar*

life is so lavishing and i'm not scared anymore. well in fact, i look forward to each and everyday, expecting to see God in every person and every tree. and btw, i'm no longer bulimic. hoorray. thanks for all your prayers and concern. bulimia rocks! it made me appreciate cafeteria food despite the NICE interior arrangement. and yeah. may i say that MO is so missed. kahit andun lang ako kanina.

so yeah. that's about everything i want to say. and oh.. one more thing.. SI RYAN GOSLING AT YOUNG HERCULES AY IISA [right rish? :)]