it is well with my soul :)

Saturday, December 31, 2005

i never imagined heaven would be so hot_lena, the pretty Greek sister of the traveling pants [wala lang... natawa lang ako nung nabasa ko to.. bwahaha.]

what should i say? *sigh* i totally disagree with what elton john [was it him?] said. sorry isnt the hardest word. its goodbye. experience taught me that well. ive always pretended to be strong enough but at times, i just cannot. years upon years, ive been holding back my tears whenever someone i love would leave... like dad. and now, i find it just as difficult to say goodbye to 2005.

and yes, i still am not strong enough. im sort of cynophobic [afraid of dogs] and in the same way, i am afraid of what lies ahead in the coming year, which will be around SOON [like 11 hours and 44 minutes from now].. or maybe i just find it SO hard to leave all the good things that came my way for the last 12 months of my life.

last year was a very fun year, especially with dahlia. but at the same time, it was sort of regretful.. really. more than once, i got tangled up with my wrong moves so i cant say i was completely happy with my sophie year.

but here comes 2005, seriously, i feel so blessed. for those who dont know yet, i went thru this [crappy] misplaced identity issue & although i was still close to God, something just didnt go right. but i am very grateful to have experienced it. it made me realize that i was too self-centered and that realization brought me back to stability & to what He was all the while calling me to do, to be a missionary.

btw, if i have offended you or something, i really am sorry. sorry. sorry.

all that was lost in 2004 came back.. like joji- we werent so close in 2nd yr and i cant say i didnt feel bad about it. but it was ok, friends need space to grow up as individuals.. even best friends. ta-da.. here we are again, a package once more. i love u joji kahit isa kang bruja [bwahaha.] *joke lang*

like sk- were still in the process of reliving the fire..
like this person- were finally talking again. not that we had some fight or something.. we simply fell apart & now... no, were not falling somewhere else.
like my self-esteem- not that ive become a confidence machine. i still think i stink but ive learned not to dwell on my weaknesses. there are far more important things to think about.. like your relationship with God.
like my family- this is yet my merriest CHRISTmas. for the first time, my familys complete.. how can i thank God enough?
like my passion for His word- this year, more than ever, i was sooo into Gods word.. like i cant read anything without opening my bible first. it was some sort of thirst, a thirst you wouldn't want to be quenched.

basta, ang dami pa. so much more actually. what made this year so memorable to me is the comeback of these important things in my life... plus many more beautiful stuff like the cheerleading victory, sea games, peso, ms international, retreat, ymsat thing [i find this hard to forget, especially when our comics original copys with me], kuya greggy who used to think i was his biggest enemy [hehe..], ramayana, paskorus, a great section [sodium, u made my year so worthwhile].. so much more pa talaga and i am feeling so frustrated for not being able to write them all.

ang dami talagang magagandang nangyari sa buhay ko this year. its a blessing and otherwise all at once. dahil dun, natatakot ako na baka mawala na naman sila sa kin or baka hindi na ganun kaganda ang year ahead. natatakot ako na mawala ung optimism & faith ko, two things that kept me holding on. binasa ko ung mga palanca sa kin ng mga tao kagabi at natatakot ako na baka mawala ung shayne na sinulatan nila. ewan. ang dami pa namang mangyayari sa near end ng sy. jam-packed with activities ang farewell ng junior life ko. sige na, takot na ako. takot na takot ako na iwan ang lahat so please, wag nyo akong iwan. importante kayo sa buhay ko. *yak ang drama* hehe... joke lang, kung will ni God na mag-iwanan tayo, ok lang yan.. good luck na lang sa ting lahat. pa*hug* na lang.

pero hello? with all the good things that came my way, shouldnt i be more excited? *sigh* hehehe.. tonight, when i say my new year prayer, after giving praise and thanks, i would be praying for this fear. God is a lot bigger than it. maya-maya, wala na yan. i have faith.

happy new year. looking forward to another year with God.

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

i guess u know the traveling pants and the sisterhood that was birthed with it but i bet u havent heard of the traveling pisay pe uniform.. so im here to proclaim its existence.

but unlike its pants counterpart, it doesnt go with a sisterhood, or probably it does.. only the uniform knows. besides that, maybe not only one pe uniform is traveling. there may be 2 or 3.. or possibly more. aynaku.. EWAN.

u see, i think joji has mich castis uniform & mich has mine & jojis with me & my other ones with macy.. not quite sure about that. basta. u dont want to get confused too, right? the point is... i dont have my original pe uniforms & thats not such a big deal. hahaha.

so there. wala lang un but im still writing about it anyway. goes to show that im out of topics or maybe i got hooked by this book. i didnt expect it to be that good. ive read better ones but it surpassed my expectations so i say its good. wishing i too share the pants with the four of them. the pants and every magic they can bring you.

for now, magpapaka-nerd na ako. sana. i have to do myself a favor.

ps-i dont use apostrophes because an apostrophe means ' ... you get what i mean.

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

happy birthday JESUS & mam hipol. merry CHRISTmas.

bihirang magkaron ng pasko na complete ung family namin. thank You, God.

narealize ko lang, ang ganda ng year na to for me. maganda rin naman ung iba e kaso theres something about this year... ung mga nawala sa kin last yr, bumalik silang lahat. thank You, God.

if theres anything else i want to ask from God, it would have to be wisdom, gaya nung inask ni solomon. gusto ko lang talaga magbago for Him kasi marami akong kasablayan. *sigh* just the same, i thank You, God.

nxt year is yet another year. maraming activities. sobra. Jesus revolution ng acts, intimate theater production ng sk, prom, asia wk, ymsat, fair. looks like ill be eating stress for breakfast til the end of the school year. help me, God. saka thank You na rin po. ill do my best...

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Friday, December 23, 2005

yehey. nabilhan ko na ng regalo ang lahat ng mga dapat regaluhan sa pamilya- that means, lahat ng mga bata [except my brother kc di ko nabili ung request nya na spongebob cd]. ang poor ko na kasi. pano ko pa kaya mabibilhan ng gifts ung pisay friends ko? aynaku. poor na nga, tanga pa. bumili kasi ako ng ballpen na P95. why spend that much when you can always go for the inexpensive one which serves exactly the same purpose? tapos naisip ko, e ang cute e! so there, nadaan ako sa kacutean pero come to think of it, mauubos din naman ang tinta nya at para san pa ang pagiging cute? oh well, nabili ko na e. siguro lesson na lang to sa buhay ko. i have to be a better decision-maker next time. kung sa mga maliliit na bagay wala akong wisdom, ano pa kaya sa big-time stuff d b? so there. i still am very happy.

pupunta kami sa san pablo bukas.

we are currently having an energy crisis. alam mo ba un?? and all im doing is to make things worse. sorry, mother earth.

regarding my scripts, no progress YET. *sobs*

Last Updated @ 6:23 PM

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Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Karen: God. My hips are huge!
Gretchen: Oh please. I hate my calves.
Regina: At least you guys can where halters. I've got man shoulders.
Cady: [voiceover] I used to think there was just fat and skinny. But apparently there's lots of things that can be wrong on your body.
Gretchen: My hairline is so weird.
Regina: My pores are huge.
Karen: My nail beds suck. [pause. All look at Cady]
Cady: I have really bad breath in the morning.
Karen: Ew!

mean girls. bwahaha.

so there. i still am brainstorming with myself about i should be doing. although my brain tells me to do something really productive like a very pretty math project, my hands do otherwise. aynaku... bakasyon kasi e. i will start off soon but puh-leez.. not now. magiging patalo ako sa bahay. ako lang ung di tutulong sa party preps and stuff. no way. i have a strict family first policy. guess what... andito ung kaisa-isa kong inaanak at wala PA akong mabibigay sa kanya. swerte na nga sya e. at least me ninang sya na napupuntahan e ako, lahat ng ninong at ninang ko nasa romblon. unfortunately, masyadong pambutas-bulsa ang trip kung pupuntahan ko pa sila. ayan tuloy... ang laki na ng utang nila sa kin. bwahaha.

wala pa rin akong nasusulat na script dahil katatapos lang namin ni nico ng conceptualization kagabi. 4 concepts... good enough to start with. im quite optimistic about this whole thing kaya as early as now sasabihin ko na sya...

*clapclapclap*
watch out for: intimate theater productions 2005
brought to you by maSKara
::pinoy pop::
details- to be announced pretty soon
*bow*

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

what should i say? ah...

im writing plays. ive been brainstorming with myself for the past few hours on what to write about. fortunately, i already came up with two themes and their unpolished scenes. its the least morbid way to kill time although i believe that i should be starting with academic stuff... like yuck. oh well, i have to admit that i really looove school requirements. sobra, cant live without them. at hindi... hinding hindi ako tinatamad. wahaha. fake it til you make it.

seriously, tawagin nyo na akong nerd pero kelangan ko talagang gawin to. for all i know, nerd ka rin. gagawin at gagawin mo rin lahat ng homework. parehas tayo and i might as well start now dahil may post-CHRISTmas shopping ako with my mom by the end of the month. saka iwas-cramming na rin. ayokong simulan ang taon nang nagccram.

go on and call me jologs but i will still honestly admit that etheria is a nice shot. nagpay-off talaga ung millions of pesos spent on the sets, costumes, writers [i must say na maganda ung plot], big-time cast. basta, maganda sya. di sya ung typical na panget ung effects.. although may mas igaganda pa sya, yun na ung best na nakita ko so far sa mga napapanood na gawa ng pinoy. saka trip ko ung opening song nila.. ung ethic-sounding. astig. maka-download nga.

jakiKAJOT, salamat sa iyong help. kung hindi dahil sa yo, di ako nakablogspot ngayon. every other month ung gamit ko sa blogs ko. 2006: jan-march-may-july-sept-nov::blogspot. feb-april-june-aug-oct-dec:: tabulas. o ha... ang taray. hahaha. wala kasi akong magawa e. i doubt naman na kaya ko na dala-dalawa ung blogs ko. i would have to discard one of them sooner or later, bet with me.

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Monday, December 19, 2005

Shayne is always true to her words. Thats the very reason why shes now on blogspot, although shes not leaving her tabulas. Shell be keeping 3 blogs-2 of which is active and the other one, just the otherwise [it only serves as a skin tester of some sort]. Your currently in her active blogspot. *clapclapclap* To see her active tabulas, heres where you have to go: www.tabulas.com/~shayneshayne. And the inactive one? Forget it, will you?

For my first entry, I would like to say hi to jaki andan. Hi jakikajot! Nakablogspot na rin ako. bwahaha.

I grew up knowing that my father was born on a dec 21 but apparently, he changed his birthdate. Weirdo. It was adjusted 2 days earlier-- for convention, for fun, for business, for love, for no reason at all? That I cannot tell. Well anyway, the point is he was born and I was born. Everybody else is born but that fact isnt really so important at all. What’s really important is that Christ was born. I dont know if He was really born on a dec 25 like they usually say. I dont care about dates anyway. What I do care about is the essence of this season—the very reason why someone has to be born to later on die for our sake.

Wishlist. Oh yeah. I have one! orange means granted wish.

Im in dire need of:
*a jar of stars
*firefly-filled dreams
*headbands
*watch
*sarong
*a swing
*twin
*a phonecall
*handshake with auraeus
*meeting with joji.. better yet, shopping with her
*diary
*ballpen with a fluffy end [just like that of marie]
*contact lens
*socks [toed/pink untoed]
*ice cream [any flavor will do.. except ube]
*pencil case [bigger and prettier than the one I have now]
*PANDA FAIRY [seriously, I need a panda!][c/o andrewT na raw to]

*and of course, to complete my Christmas: hugs, kisses and smiles.

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